feeling relieved after speaking with somebody from the medical community, i planned on going out and getting my drugs. that's when i pushed the underside of my left jaw near my neck and felt this sharp pain. no lumps, but it hurts when i poke around in that region. so i went online and searched for "swollen lymph nodes underneath neck." if i thought that would assuage my fears i was seriously wrong. instead of "expert" advice telling me everything would be okay, i found forums and bulletin boards where people with neck and throat cancer and lymphomas were writing about their experiences. yikes. that's when my mother came to pick me up to go to target. "i think i might have cancer," i told her as we drove off.
we went to costco and target before i got a ride back home. i tried calling the hospital to definitely schedule an appointment but they were already closed. at the very least i can self-medicate for the time being. i went into the bathroom and dripped the earwax removal liquid into my ear. it felt sort of weird as it trickled inside my ear canal and i could hear the crackling of dissolving earwax. minutes later i washed out that ear, where a viscous sludge oozed out. next i popped a claritin-d tablet. hours later i felt sort of strange, but my sinuses cleared up to a certain extent. however, at this point, i don't think it's a problem with blocked earwax or nasal decongestion. the pain is definitely localized to my throat, and then to my jaw joint area when i tilt my head. i'll just have to wait until monday to call up my doctor, unless i have to take a trip to the emergency room.
with the myriad of different colored lights shining and flashing in my grow closet, it really is like a carnival in there. i'm noticing more and more nasturtium flower buds. frankly, i didn't think any of the nasturtiums would flower unless i decreased the daily amount of light so they think it's later in the artificial growing season. but another thing that makes plants flower is when you stress them. if they think they're about to die, they start making flowers like crazy in an attempt to make some seeds before they're gone. that must be the case here. as for the cypress vines, i added two more to my collection yesterday and the fourth and last should be emerging within the next few days (i checked beneath the soil, a seedling is definitely growing).