i was surprised to see that my supposedly dead fish was still moving a little bit, but it wasn't swimming, and just stayed at the bottom of the tank on its side. i removed it and put it in a separate container of water like i did yesterday, transfering the makeshift underwater hospice into the warmer bathroom. i wish there was some way to ease its suffering, or to even know what's happening. unfortunately i'm no fish doctor and the best i can do is to just wait and see. i got fish as pets specifically because nobody gets attached to fish, but somehow i still feel bad over the eventual loss.

not much happened today, i slept late and woke up late, with just a few hours of daylight before evening. my camera batteries came, as well as my 2gb memory card. i made a fruit elixir and a bowl of miso soup for lunch, and left the house in the late afternoon to go get some tiramisu ingredients (mostly lady fingers) from market basket. it was a 15-20 minute walk, but i needed the exercise, i didn't even mind the cold. the supermarket was crowded, boxes of crushed food littered the narrow aisles, and there was a heavy congestion of overflowing shopping carts lining the checkout counters. my parents came over again (the house smelled like an indian spice shop at that point because i was making some chai tea), and i went back out with my mother to the dollar store to get a glass lasagna dish. we came back to the house with a pizza from papa john's: it wasn't anything special, and tasted premade.

after they left i watched the playoff football game between new england patriots versus the jacksonville jaguars. the first quarter was tense, neither team was budging, despite the patriots getting a touchdown. as the game wore on though, the jaguars were starting to commit turnovers that the patriots were able to take advantage of. starting in the second half, the pats burst the game wide open, and scored 3 more touchdowns in the span of 7 minutes. i started to feel bad for the jaguars, with their quarterback limping around the field, and the rest of the team with that look of defeat in their eyes. it's going to be crazy next week though, and if we win that game (and the game after that), it's the superbowl again!