i miss those days when friends hang out in apartments. a bar is no good place to hang out. they're noisy, they're smoky, and they're filled with the kind of people whom i normally wouldn't gave the time of day to. restaurants are not a good substitute either. social gatherings that revolve around food can get expensive not to mention fattening. movie theatres? movies only last two hours and during that time you're not really socializing (with some exceptions of of course!), you're silently watching the film. i miss hanging out in apartments, ordering take out, watching tv, being with close friends. safe, clean, friendly, inexpensive. that's the way i like it.

today was my mother's 50th birthday, the family gathered all around for a dinner. birthdays, they come and go. i feel like it should be celebrated right, but what is right? big presents, fancy dinner, a card, a cake? my family doesn't do special occasions very well. if you can get a dinner to go with a special day, that's about as good as it gets. when my special day comes around, i don't want any hooplah either.

i need a haircut. it's been almost three months since my last haircut in a turkish hair saloon. my hair is really bushy now, and during this vacation it's gotten even worse, because i wake up and i don't comb my hair and it's starting to get really wild. maybe i don't need a haircut though. it's winter, it's cold outside, my shaggy helmet keeps my melon warm.