first day of non-daylight saving's time. i always get those two confused. i
always felt wintertime was daylight saving's because there was less of
daylight, but it's not. anyway, it's depressing. i was working, and when i
looked up, it was already dark outside. nothing makes me feel more like the day
is over than when i see it's dark outside. it's sunday. i'm in the office
working. and it's dark outside. depressing through and through.
what kind of physical toll has working all these late nights been having on
my body? surprisingly, not too bad. my eyesight's kind of messed up when i
leave here at the end of the day, having stared at the monitor for many
hours. i have a hard time seeing things in the distance, they're kind of
blurry. my eyes are just tired. the one major thing though is i am
developing a hacking cough. i remember when michael was working on those
late night projects that he'd get those too. i don't know when i'm going to
lose it. if anyone can carry a cough for the longest time, it's me.
just two more nights left before the delivery, tonight being one of those
nights. once again, i am the only person in the office (at least upstairs)
and it is very quiet, other that the usual ambient noises.
tonight i am missing game 2 of the world series and episode 9 of band of
i can't wait for this project to go out so i can rejoin the rest of
humanity. other than the first week of october when i was still on vacation,
this entire month has been dedicated to the service of the company. every
waking, breathing hour, if i'm not performing the functions necessary for basic
survival (eating, sleeping), i am working on the project or thinking about
the project, no matter how hard i try to resist it. i don't think it's
consumed my life, but from the outside looking in it appears that way. i don't
think i owe them anything more. when the end of thanksgiving rolls around i
will have worked here for exactly one year. we're even now.